Thursday, June 28, 2007

What's My Problem??

Everyone has their problems, and I certainly have mine.


For starters, it's Thursday. And I know it's Thursday. I never know what day it is during the summer. But I know it's Thursday because I feel the need to go watch a repeat of Supernatural that I've probably already seen two or three times.


Another problem is my hair. I know that I need bangs because I have a large forehead, but they never stay in place. I deal though, and move on.


My biggest problem is getting a job. I know I need to get a job. I know I need the money and the experience. And yet I can't bring myself to fill out and submit an application to anywhere. I have excuses for all the places my parents sggest that I work. And it certainly helps that I'm super shy. That's going to make all jobs open to me way easy *eye roll*. My Mom asked me this morning if I wasn't fill out applications because I'm scared. I said "yes". I'd figured that out. I'm not scared to leave childhood behind. I'm a kid at heart and I'll find my ways to have fun as an adult. I'm scared of the real-world. I'm such an independant person. I'm scared to open myself up to the suckiness of the real-world. I hate how things are run and I know I can't do anything about it. On the Internet I get to make my own sites and run things. Oh yeah, and I hate stupid people. They annoy me. Not the people who ask a question that seems easy for me to answer, they're fine. I'm talking about the people who consistently act stupid and behave ridiculously for attention. Why, because that's my limelight they're stealing. Here I am, doing what I'm supposed to and then there's someone acting like a complete idiot. And I don't get to talk with those of authority because they're too busy dealing with the stupid person. *sigh*


EDIT (Aug. 15): I filled in and sent in a Best Buy application on July 21. I got no response. At this point in time I'm filling out a work-study contract for Champlain and trying to get the rest of my paperwork sent in so that I can go.

Monday, June 25, 2007

When Your Muse Attacks

I'm pretty sure I've never written a songfic before, but I found this song on YouTube that Lsketch42 put Supernatural clips to. The video is here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r_WP5lckd1I. It's very nice. I was looking over the words for that song and I copied the lyrics to post here. The song is "24" by Jem.


Been given 24 hours
To tie up loose ends
To make amends
His eyes said it all
I started to fall
And the silence deafened
Head spinning round
No time to sit down
Just wanted to
Run and run and run
Be careful they say
Don't wish life away,
Now I've one day


And I can't believe
How I've been wasting my time


In 24 hours they'll be
Laying flowers
On my life, it's over tonight
I'm not messing no I
Need your blessing
And your promise to live free
Please do it for me


Is there a heaven a hell
And will I come back
Who can tell
Now I can see
What matters to me
It's as clear as crystal
The places I've been
The people I've seen
Plans that I made
Start to fade
The sun's setting gold
Thought I would grow old,
It wasn't to be


And I can't believe
How I've been wasting my time


In 18 hours they'll be
Laying flowers
On my life, it's over tonight
I'm not messing no I
Need your blessing
And your promise to live free
Please do it for me


In 13 hours they'll be
Laying flowers
On my life, it's over tonight
I'm not messing no I
Need your blessing
And your promise to live free
Please do it for me


I'm not alone, I sense it, I sense it
All that I said, I meant it, I meant it


And I can't believe
How much I've wasted my time


In just 8 hours they'll be
Laying flowers
On my life, it's over tonight
I'm not messing no I
Need your blessing
And your promise to live free
Please do it for me


In just 1 hour they'll be
Laying flowers
On my life, it's over tonight
I'm not messing no I
Need your blessing
And your promise to live free
Please do it for me


Lsketch42's video is a Dean!vid about the season finale and how the YED (Big Bad) took everything from Dean. For me this song screams for a fanfiction to be written about the last day of that year Dean has before the Crossroads Demon takes his soul. Because Death!fics that take place a year after AHBL have been done to death as much as Faith tags have...yet. So, I'm thinking that if I want to continue to listen to this song I'm going to have to write a songfic to it. And I'll put it here, because I hate the stories I have on fanfiction.net. They're awful.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

I Write A Lot!

She doesn't stop me and I am able to start up my CD player before breaking into hysterics. Messing with her is like teasing a kitten. She gets all mad and then never does anything about it.


Twenty minutes later I've turned the music down and covered up all traces of my hysterical laughter induced crying with eye liner, mascara and gratuitous amounts of blush. I turn off the music completely and check out my outfit. I switch from my t-shirt to a long-sleeve white shirt with little black skulls on it, and my jeans for my favorite pair of cargo pants.


My plan for the evening is to meet Jules and Lani at the movie theater in twenty minutes. We'd all been wanting to see Survivor: Big Screen. The people behind the Survivor show were taking a page out of Joss Whedon's book and making a movie after being cancelled. None of us had actually watched much Survivor, but we were interested in finding out how they would work a process that usually took an entire season, approximately 16 hours of screen time, into a two and a half hour movie. After the movie we were going to head over to "Hannah's House of Pizza" for dinner and an informal discussion of the movie. Informal, of course, meaning things like along the lines of "that sucked" or "that guy was so hot".


After deciding that I was finally dressed and ready I grabbed thirty bucks from my "bank," a piece of metal Lani had banged into a slight curve and in our seventh grade shop class, and walked out into the living room.


"Mom, would you give me a ride to the theater?" I'd learned long ago that asked my parents if they could drive me somewhere or do something usually earned me a response like "yeah, I could, but I don't know if I want to."


"Sure Lisa." I rolled my eyes, not bothering to correct her for a second time. My Mom paused and then tried to break the silence. "So..." She dragged the word out to an unreasonable length. "What movie are you going to see?" She gathered up her keys and purse as we spoke.


Survivor: Big Screen, and then we're going over to Hannah's. Is that okay?" I force myself into my Mom's minivan. It's such a Mom mobile. I'm sure it's very safe, but I have to say that my Dad's black '67 Mustang convertible is way better for my "I hate society" image.


"That's fine, dear. As long as you're home by eleven, remember."


"I will. I'll call you on my...I left my cell at home." I sit thinking, my sentence unfinished. My Mom reaches, without looking away from the road, into a slot just below the CD player/radio and pulls out her cell phone. She disconnects it from the charger and deposits it in my lap.


"Call if you need a ride." I look between my Mom and the cell a few times before slipping the phone into my pocket. It amazes me sometimes the things my Mom is able to do without looking, like catching me sneaking ice cream, and the aforementioned cell phone stunt.

Friday, June 22, 2007

Lyrics I Like

"This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race" by Fall Out Boy


I am an arms dealer.
Fitting you with weapons in the form of words
And don't really care, which side wins
As long as the room keeps singing
That's just the business I'm in.



This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
I'm not a shoulder to cry on, but I digress.



I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate
I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate.



I wrote the gospel of giving up
(You look pretty sinking)
But the real bombshells have already sunk
(Pre-Madonnas of the gutter)
At night we're painting your trash gold while you sleep
Crashing not like hips or cars
No, more like p-p-p-parties.



This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race.



Bandwagon's full. Please, catch another.



I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate
I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate.



All the boys who the dance floor didn't love
And all the girls whose hips couldn't move fast enough
Sing until your lungs give out.



This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
(Now you)
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
(Wear out the groove)
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
(Sing out loud)
This ain't a scene, it’s a god damn arms race
(Oh, oh)
This ain't a scene, it's a god damn arms race.



I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate
I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate, oh so intricate.




I love the words to this song. I think they're so cool.

Thursday, June 21, 2007

More Writing

I've added more to the Melodie Winters story. It's untitled, but for now it's saved as winters.rtf on my computer.




“Thanks Mom. I'll be home by eleven.” Exit well-adjusted daughter to her bedroom.


I open my bedroom door, pausing to note that I should change the "Do not enter or else" sign on my door to something a little more creative. I marvel at the organized chaos that I lovingly accept as my living space. My room's not messy you see, it's just not clean. Viewed by an outsider the clothes strewn across the haphazard stacks of paper, books, notebooks and more clothes is what constitutes a danger zone. Something akin to the debris left in the wake of a tornado. But it's not, really. I've used many excuses to get out of cleaning my room. Feigned illness is a good one, a classic actually. "If it ain't broke don't fix it." I read that somewhere. Feigned illness was great until my Dad realized that I was getting "sick" everytime I was told to clean my room. He took me to the Doctor's office for a check-up and full physical as payback. That was the official breaking point of the feigned illness excuse. My new favorite: hide everything. It works so well. I go in with a whole box of trash bags and pull out two. Into one I put actual trash, stuff that missed the trash can because it's been full since the last time I "cleaned". Into the other bag goes everything else. Once that's full I tie it up and hide it somewhere, and then start a new bag. Then I continue filling and hiding bags until there's no where to hide them. Use the words "work in progress" and throw in a few "I like it so much better like this" type statements and I don't get bothered again until dirty laundry starts trying to crawl under the door. But like I said, my room's not a dangeer zone. It's just not perfectly clean like Melodie's. And oh, how I have heard about the cleanliness of Melodie's room. "Melodie keeps her room clean, get's straight A's and plays sports. Why can't you do the same?" My mother asks frequently. Well, because I'm not Melodie. My Mom blames my "horrid lack of cleanliness," as she says, on laziness. I'm not lazy. Keeping my room less than tidy is a strategic move on my part. If my family is afraid that the contents of my room could eat a person whole then they'll never feel the need to come in here. It also makes it easier to hide my diary from my parents...and myself. It's not lost, I'm hiding it.


I have a plan for this packing thing. Step one: Put all clothes (and other washable objects) in the laundry. Step two: Pack everything else before laundry is finished. Step three: Pack laundry.


I quickly put my plan into action by hauling loads of dirty laundry into the laundry room. With every load I bring I deny myslef the pleasure of starting with step two just for the sake of being different.


With all the clothing that had been in sight now clogging up the overly small laundry room I start sorting out books, notebooks, loose paper and CDs from my belongings.


The boxes that have been in the garage since the invention of cardboard suddenly become very useful and I am able to fill one with the stuff I had sorted out. I leave the box open in another display of winning strategy. I'll add more as I fill boxes with other things.


After two and a half hours of using my packing method all that I have left in my room are the scattered items that didn't fit in with the things I'd packed away in the other boxes., and the big things like my bed, bureau and computer (with desk and chair). I'll get my Mom and Dad to help me take those apart closer to when we're moving.


I sit on the corner of my bed and survey the product of my labor with disdain. It no longer looks or feels like my room. The posters and other assorted pieces of art that had adorned my walls had gone into a box as soon as I'd cleared enough stuff on my floor to be able to reach my walls. This is not my personalized living space anymore. Now it's just a room that I'll be sleeping in and that would make me sad if I were a drama queen like Melodie. But I'm not, so I deal and move on. I remember packing up and leaving California. Melodie complains, but I loved it there too, ans I also had to move away. It's not all about her after all.


I pick up my phone with the hopes that the time I spent packing was long enough for Melodie to call every person she's ever met or talked to and complain about the move to Maine. She's on the phone when I pick up and I quickly make up a story so that I can have the phone. I don't want to use my cell phone, when I can easily use the home phone.


"'Scuse me. Melodie, the cops are at the door. They want to talk to you about your driving." I hear Melodie gasp and excuse herself from the call, and then the line dies as her friend hangs up as well. I smile in satisfaction and give myself a mental pat on the back before hanging up and calling one of my friends.


My conversation is short as I invite Jules, and Lani who is hanging out with her, to see a movie with me.


I hang up the phone and at the exact moment I hear my name screamed from the living room. It's my sister.


I've only taken one step into the room before she starts her accusations: "You lied. The police aren't here to talk to me."


"Really?" I sound so innocent and sincere. Go me! "It must have been my imagination. I thought I saw the blue and red lights. Sorry to interrupt your call then. You can have the phone back." Turn, walk away calmly. Don't look back, and above all don't start laughing until the music is playing loud enough to cover it up.


She doesn't stop me and I am able to start up my CD player before breaking into hysterics. Messing with her is like teasing a kitten. She gets all mad and then never does anything about it.




That's all for now. A little over a thousand words (just like the first part).

New Display Picture

Here it is my new display picture for here:



I think it's lovely.

Being Evil Has It's Perks

Evil has so much bad press. When considering evil people (murderers, rapists, etc.) most blame the persons life before they started doing evil things, or their mother. Whatev. I think I found a reason to go Dark Side.


For girls it's not like that. It's like this. Look below. If that's what you get for being evil...sign me up.





Just kidding. The whole "no control over my body" thing would get old really fast. And I'd probably piss of the Evil Higher Ups. It's just my charm.


I called this a character study because if the women that were possessed had had a choice in the matter and knew that making out with hot guys was part of the deal then it could have been something they thought about. Either that or I'm really tired and should get some sleep so that I can think straight. Because when I think straight I don't post weird things like this. Wait...actually I do. Huh.

Unillusioned

Title: Unillusioned
Author: Me
Fandom: None (shocking, I know)
Author's Notes: I wrote this on Saturday. I didn't think I just wrote. It was fun.


It looked like one of those cliched diaries from a movie. The perfect cursive script filled the page. Every word carefully thought out and written in the perfect girly handwriting. Thought out might be an understatement. The words weren't thought out, they were planned. Faked. Each and every word was part of a larger ploy. It had to be. Each page spoke about how much love the girl had for her parents, her siblings, the dog. There weren't even minor things about not liking dinner or having to take the dog out for walks. Either this girl had the perfect life or she had faked the journal so that her parents would think she was nothing but rainbows and bunnies all the time.


"Is there anything else? Another journal?"


"No, sir."


"Check the computer."


As much as he wanted to believe that this girl was perfect he knew it wasn't true. Perfect kids didn't overdose on drugs.

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Magna Carta I and Magna Carta II

The Magna Carta I and Magna Carta II are twins. They are two lists. Magna Carta I is a list of things that I like when I'm reading a book (or fanfiction). Magna Carta II is Magna Carta I's evil twin brother. It's a list of things I hate to read in books (or fanfics). Turn off. The idea to write these lists is from the book No Plot, No Problem. It's a guide to writing a novel in 30 days (for NaNoWriMo). The basic idea is that things I like to read are things I'd like to write, and things I hate to read are things that I would not enjoy writing.


So, here goes:


Magna Carta I (Likes)
Humor
Dragons
Ghosts, Monsters, Demons
Mystery
Hurt/Comfort
Fingerless Gloves (I don't understand either, just go with it)
Inner Demons (Angst)
Super powers
Relationships that are forbidden (because of rules or parents or friens, etc. getting in the way)
Truly evil bad guys (Evil, crazy, no redeeming qualities)
Hero story
Banter/Sarcasm (probably could go up with humor)


Magna Carta II (Hates)
Incest
Monologuing
High School Drama ("OMG I like broke a nail." Me: "OMG, where can I go not care?")
Pointless Romance (Like Soap Operas and the romance novels my Dad reads)
Plotless angst/hurt/comfort (There has to be a good reason for it)
Mary Sue/Larry Stu characters (Those ones that are so perfect that you hate them, but you can't kill them because they're too perfect to die)


These lists will most likely be edited over the summer to include things that I haven't thought of yet.

Bored Again and New Found Love

I got bored again (this summer is really boring). And as per the norm I made a desktop picture. This one is of Big Bad.



With the making of that desktop picture I have realized my undying love...for Big Bad. That's right. Big Bad is bringing sexy back to the underworld. He's so charismatic. He makes crazy, mother-killing, demon look fun.


I installed AIM on my Mom's computer and I needed an icon, so I made one. It's below. I think I'm going to go watch "All Hell Breaks Loose" (both parts) and "In My Time Of Dying".


Got Bored, Nothin' More

I got bored. Here is the result:



Every letter has a different picture in it. See how many you can identify episodes for. All of the pictures are of Dean (not Jensen, Dean).


I changed my mind. I don't care if anyone else can identify them all. I want to see if I can.
D: Born Under A Bad Sign
E: In my Time of Dying
A: Dead in the Water
N: Bugs
W: The Benders
I: Salvation
N: Shadow
C: Something Wicked
H: Bloody Mary
E: Bloody Mary
S: Tall Tales
T: All Hell Breaks Loose Part 2
E: What Is, And What Should Never Be
R: All Hell Breaks Loose Part 2



This was one I made in WebTeam that I don't think I'd posted. It's been the acting wallpaper for my Mom's computer for a few days. But now the Dean Winchester one has taken over (the one above this one).

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

My Wall of Inspiration




The above pictures were taken a while ago. Like months ago. They are pictures of my wall. My Inspiration wall. Since the pictures were taken I have added some drawing and song lyrics and shiny wrapping paper and other things.


Note: If you click on the pictures they get big enough to read what I have typed up there.

Writing is a Release

I just read the book No Plot, No Problem by Chris Baty. The man who founded NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month). It inspired me to write. So I sat down at the computer and I wrote for about an hour. And I ended up with the start of a story that I'd like to continue. For now I'm going to take a shower and then I have the odd desire to clean my room (don't tell my parents). Here's what I wrote in the last hour.




Melodie Winters. The cliched popular girl. Cheerleading, Pep Squad, dating the quarterback of the football team and all-around bitch. She was girl all the other popular kids loved and everyone else hated. Except she was smart too. Most of the popular girls were easy to get away from. Just take an advanced class. But not Melodie. Next to her cheerleading trophies she lined up her spelling bee trophies and Science Olympiad awards. It seems that you don't need a winning personality if you're the head cheerleader and have one of the top ten class rankings. Fourth actually. But she'd find a way to move up. She didn't cheat, but she wasn't opposed to blackmailing or threatening other members of the top ten. But all good things come to an end, even for Melodie Winters. And before we knew it, or had any hand in making it happen, Melodie's days at the high class New York high school came to an end.


“We're WHAT?!” Melodie's scream resonated through our house and I could almost see the smoke pouring out of her ears. I had to keep from laughing when she got mad. Her eyebrows skyrocketed up her forehead and then settled into a crease, and her hair looked like it was about to turn red.


“We're moving, Melodie.” Mrs. Heather Winters, always kind and well-groomed. Her voice was calm as if trying to explain the situation to a five year old. “To Maine.”


“WHY?” The Winters' fine china rattled in the china cupboard, small tea cups threatening to take the fatal leap off of their shelf.


“Melodie Anastasia Winters! You will NOT speak to your mother like that! Calm down this moment.” This was the powerful voice of Mr. Cale Winters. His comments meant to put Melodie in her place worked in the opposite way and enraged Melodie even more.


“Why Maine?” Melodie still fumed, but yelling further would not get her the answers she needed to sort out this error in her perfect life.


“New York is not the place to be raising children.” Melodie's face contorted.


“I'm seventeen.” She glared at her parents. “I only have one year of high school left.” She made the sentences short; every word staccato. “How much more raising do you have to do?”


“You sister is just going into high school. She has four more years left. And we want her in a place free of social pressures.” Melodie looked away from my father to me.

Didn't I tell you? Melodie might be moving, but I'll never get away from her. She's my big sister.


“This is your fault!” The screaming bitch was back, and now she was aimed directly at me. Thanks Dad.


“I didn't ask them to move us to Maine.” I defend. “You think I want to move away from all my friends?” I'm not thrilled about this either, I just know when to scream and when to stay quiet. Our parents have their minds made up and throwing a tantrum isn't going to change it.


“Melodie this was not your sister's decision. She --”


“I have friends here. I have a boyfriend! And I'm practically the first in class rankings. I can't move it'll screw up everything.” Step one: point out reasons why here is good. “Who will lead the cheer leaders? Or head the Pep Squad? They can't get by without me.” Step two: ask questions that would make you stay, but that our parents don't care about. “Please Daddy.” She pushed her bottom lip out and threw in the lost puppy eyes. “Mom. I can leave. I just can't.” Step three: the begging.


“Melodie you said all these things when we moved from California. Now, you managed to find a place here and meet new friends. You'll be able to do it again in Maine” My Dad tries so hard, but logic doesn't work on traumatized teen girls. And for a drama queen like my sister, moving is almost as bad as being murdered. She doesn't want logic, she wants them to change their minds.


“This is non-negotiable Mel.” My Mom starts. The use of the nickname Melodie hates probably wasn't a good move. “I found a great job in Maine, and so has your father. They are both close to the house we found. Which is just gorgeous.” My Mom's voice switches to an airy, dream-like voice over. Like she picturing the new house and her new job in her mind. “The high school we found is very highly recommended and they have an excellent athletics department, so I'm sure you'll be able to do cheer leading and dance there.”


“I really wish you wouldn't call me Mel, mother.” My sister's plan to stop Mom from calling her Mel is to call her mother every time she uses the despised nickname. So far it's working because every time Melodie calls Mom mother there's usually a month or more before Mom slips up again and calls her Mel accidentally.


Nobody speaks, my parents and I focused on Melodie, waiting for a reaction. Wait for it...almost. There. Melodie stands and walks to her room.


“Where are you going honey?” My Mom asks. Like she doesn't know. Melodie always does this emo, moping thing. Every time she gets dumped, or grounded, or gets an A- on a test. This is not a new thing.


“I'm just going to go call my friends.” Melodie turns to face us, tears in her eyes and streaming down her cheeks. “When are we leaving?”


“Next week. Your mother and I wanted to give you two enough time to say goodbye and pack up properly.”


“Okay.” Melodie wipes at her cheeks. It's like a soap opera. Any second we're going to realize that a dead relative left us millions and then an ex-boyfriend is going to come apologize to Melodie for cheating on her with another man.


“Lisa, how are you handling this?” My mother interrupts my thoughts. I probably could have written that up and become a Hollywood script writer.


“It's Li, and I'm good. I'm going to start packing.” Enter well-adjusted daughter. “Do you mind if I go out with some friends tonight? See a movie, get some pizza.”


“No, that's fine. As long as you're back by eleven.” The eleven o'clock curfew still stands apparently. Even though school is out and we're moving out of state. It's usually pushed back to midnight or one during the summer.


“Thanks Mom. I'll be home by eleven.” Exit well-adjusted daughter to her bedroom.




More to come. Got Nothin' is going to be my back-up in case I lose the version saved to the computer.

Saturday, June 16, 2007

An Impala...Near Me!!

There's a house over near one of my friend's house (I have to drive past it to get to her house) that's selling a '64 Impala. It's a maroonish/purple color. Let me see if I can find a picture online...*time passes*



It looks like that (4 door) except it's this color:



Everytime we drive past it I ogle. It's pretty. It would be so awesome to drive around in an Impala. And a '64 is pretty close to a '67. I'd leave it the maroon/purple color. That way fangirls wouldn't follow me around thinking it was Metallicar.


Before Supernatural I didn't care. Now I notice. My Memere drives an Impala. It's a newer model (probably in the 2000s). She drove me to my graduation in it. And the show Drive (which I LIKED. Thank you very much, FOX) one of the characters drove a '64 Impala. It was Winston Salazar (played by Kevin Alejandro). He was the one that had been released from prison and had hooked up with his brother for the race. Hmm...two brothers, the older one a badass hottie, driving cross country in a '60 model Chevrolet Impala. Sounds familiar. Never realized that before.


And now it's too late (early) for me to be thinking straight. So, I'm going to head to bed. I've have to be up and personable by 8:45am. The timestamp says I'm posting this at 1:31am, but I'm actually posting at 3:10am.

Something to Look Into A Little More


http://community.livejournal.com/rocksaltwhores/. It's a LiveJournal Community called Rock Salt Whores. They're a Supernatural Challenge Community. The challenges they post have actual expectations, not just a word like most of the places I've ended up on. I'll have to look into it a little more because I really want to write something. I haven't really written anything in a while.


I've read some of these, but I can't remember how many. http://www.valjeanfanfiction.com/DAfanfic06.html. It's a series called Dark Alec. Kind of Dark Angel Virtual Season 4, except Alec is the main character. And I think they're kind of Max/Alec, which is okay because I like them as a couple (Max is a girl).

My Fandom Has Talent

I've been in other fandoms before, though I didn't really know how huge the Internet was. I have to say Supernatural has an amazing fandom. The fanfiction is awesome. Something for everything. And there's Plastic!Winchester Theater which is creative genius. But tonight I've found some true talent. http://griseldajane.livejournal.com/. It's a LiveJournal (kinda obvious). If you flip through the posts under the tag "art" there are some really, really well done pieces of Supernatural artwork.


My fandom also has heart. http://fandom-rocks.com/. For those who think that Supernatural is just a television show with hot guys. Our fandom is truly amazing. Fandom Rocks is a site that colects money and donates it to two fandom-chosen charities. The charities being donated are chosen by our fandom every six months or so.


Friday, June 15, 2007

Tentative College Schedule

Here's my schedule (it may change) for Champlain this fall.


Rhetoric I
Standard Tuesday, Thursday 03:30PM - 04:45PM, Joyce Hall, Room 201


Concepts of the Self
Standard Tuesday, Friday 11:00AM - 12:15PM, Joyce Hall, Room 202


Web Development I
Standard Wednesday 09:30AM - 12:00PM, Foster Hall, Room 104


Computer Theory, Introduction
Standard Friday 12:30PM - 03:00PM, Miller Information Commons, Room 308


Web Business, Introduction to
Standard Tuesday 05:30PM - 08:15PM, Joyce Hall, Room 310


So, that's it. Monique and I have Intro to Web Business together.

Thursday, June 14, 2007

The OMG High School's Over Break Down

I've heard rumors of the OMG High School's Over Break Down, but I didn't think it would happen to me. Actually, that's not true...I told my friends that I would have my breakdown in the middle of the summer when there was no one for me to cry on. I was pretty close. Not the middle of the summer, the middle of the night 1:15 am on June 14, 2007. I couldn't call anyone, for obvious reasons. Luckily I was able to wake my sister and cry on her for about fifteen minutes. And what caused my breakdown you ask: the thought of saying good-bye to my closest friends? No, still not thinking about that. The thought of moving to a new state and having to support myself? No, trying to not think about that one. It was the act of writing a thank you note (letter, novella) to my favorite teacher. I have to go back in to school tomorrow and get my copy of Aquila and give my PALS shirt back. And I wanted to give a thank you note (it really is closer to a novella) to my favorite teacher. It took me an hour to write and more tissues than I wish to disclose. Thankfully I didn't cry or get snot on the letter, and didn't have to start over. But now it's getting close to three in the morning and I have to get up and to the school before nine (it'll be easier to go in before 3rd period exam ends, because the teacher I need to get my Aquila from had my English class 3rd period, so hopefully she'll be there and she won't have a class).


On a lighter note I have reconnected with my love of Pokemon. My guy friends have all been playing Pokemon on their various handheld game consoles (Nintendo DS and the likes), and it made me want to pull out my GameBoy Advanced and Pokemon Sapphire. So I took them with me on the Project Grad trip and since Sunday I've played for about 11 hours. It's an addictive game.


I went out to Borders and Target tonight (last night?) with my Dad. At Borders I picked up the book "What is the What?" by Dave Eggers. It's a required reading book at Champlain and I wanted to get an early start on it. I can reread it later in the summer if I need to. At Target I bought the first season of Veronica Mars. I've watched eight or nine episodes so far. I have no life. It's a cool show, I'll miss it next year.


I love writing. I feel so much better already. I'm going to do a little reading and then go to bed so I can get up tomorrow.

Friday, June 08, 2007

Photoshop Fun

I've had Photoshop 7 for a while now and I've never really bothered to try out all the filters. So now I have. The original picture is from "In My Time Of Dying". I resized it so that it could be seen without scrolling.



The original. No effects added.



A. Emboss.



B. Fragment. I can see myself using this in the future.



C. Fresco



D. Glowing Edges. I've used this before.



E. Patchwork. I like this effect.



F. Spotlight



G. Grain. This is the effect I used on my last few wallpapers.



H. Ink Outlines. I really like this. It looks like a drawing.


Now I need to find a life. In actuality I'll probably make some more desktop pictures.

More Art


I'm realizing that I get bored alot. Anyway, I just made these. The pictures are from the episode "No Exit". The one above is 1280 x 720. And it's just the three pictures blended together. No special effects.



This one has a bunch of effects, like Grain and blending mode changes. It is also 1280 x 720.



This one I tried to use the same effects as the one above, but it is 1024 x 720.


Note to self: laptop should have a widescreen (so I can put more pictures in to desktop wallpapers).

Art Is Pretty

I got bored and ended up with this.



It's 1280 x 720 (widescreen) and the pictures are from the episode "Bloodlust".


After saving I realized I couldn't size it down to fit, so I cut it down and made two that are 1024 x 768.




So Monique, the top one should fit your laptop when you get it back from being fixed.

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Possibly the Greatest YouTube Music Video Ever

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lCD_CEPbKvo. I don't even want to explain it. It would give to much away. It does have Supernatural clips though.

Monday, June 04, 2007

Deep Questions

Supernatural Friday Five Questions for June 1, 2007.


1. If Supernatural had to be remembered by one line from the show, which line do you think it should be and why?
"Saving people, hunting things: The family business." Because it explains what they do and why they do it. I love how it's worded as well. Saving people comes before hunting things. Saving people is the important part. And it's a family thing. That's why they do it.



2. What do you think would be Dean's favourite movie? And Sam's?
I think would like movies like The DaVinci Code. Mystery, logic. I think Dean would nitpick at horror movies and be mad that they get so much wrong. I think Dean would like The Blues Brothers.



3. Explain how you think Sam learned to drive. Who taught him? Did he have trouble? Was he a natural? Was he allowed to learn in the Impala?
I think Dean helped teach him. I think he probably tried to use the "driver picks the music, shotgun shuts his cakehole" line on Dean at one point. I think he would have had to learn in the Impala because they had no other car. He was probably a little shaky the first time, but got better.



4. Dean is very stuck in his ways, but everyone eventually makes the transition from cassette tapes to CDs (or at least they add CDs to their cassette tape collection). What kind of CD do you think will finally get Dean to purchase a CD?
When they no longer sell tapes anywhere I think Dean will buy CDs of classic rock collections. When he absolutely has to make the switch from cassette tape to CD.



5. If Dean had to choose one of the two, do you think he would choose sex or rock n' roll?
I think he'd choose rock n' roll, unless there was girl in the room.

Prom Pictures Galore!

I figure I might as well finish posting pictures from Prom night.




The Champlain College Crew: Dustin, Me, Monique and Ryan V. Next year we'll be taking over the Champlain Class of 2011. Monique and I are invading the Web Site Development and Management major while Dustin and Ryan V. will slowly corrupt the Electronic Gaming major with their awesomeness.




We had a limo! We had a limo! All of us standing in front of our limo. And our limo driver was so nice.




Me and Ryan F. We're both total hotties (you know you want to admit it).




Me and Ryan F.




The guys all dressed up.




The theme for Prom was 007 because we're the class of 2007, so the guys had to take a silly picture. And Josh is showing off his "guns".




To prove just how white they are.




Us lovely ladies. So gorgeous.




Showin' off some leg. Even Ryan V. and Dustin joined in.




Do you feeling the love?




Jenn and Ryan V.




Jenn and Ryan V.




Heather and Dustin. Dustin rocked the hat and cane and pocketwatch.




Heather and Dustin.




Monique and Steve. Monique, I can't say enough how much I LOVE your dress. You look like a princess. So beautiful.




Monique and Steve.




Sara and Josh. The color of Sara's dress and Josh's vest match so well. We were very impressed.




Sara and Josh.


It was a great night, and...oh yeah! We rode in a LIMO!!!! That was very exciting. Except for the stupid strobe lights it was perfect. And our after party was so fun. We stayed up late. And Monique and I had a conversation about bagels while I was sleeping. I'm so talented.

Sunday, June 03, 2007

Names Are Important

Yesterday at dinner my friends and I were talking about what our names mean. I didn't know so I just looked it up. Meghan means "pearl". Which I think is a really funny word.


Here's the site I used: http://www.name-meanings.com/.


So, after searching my own name I proceeded to look up other names. Erin, my sister's name, means "Ireland". Neither me nor my sisters names seem to fit us, but maybe other people's do.


My only excuse for the following is boredom and curiosity:
Jensen: God is Gracious (This actually seems to fit)
Jared: Down to Earth (This also seems to fit)
Dean: Head, leader
Sam: God's Word
Jason: Healer
Now I'm wondering if maybe the writers for Supernatural checked this stuff out when they were naming the characters because their names fit really well to their characters.

Prom!!!

Last night was prom and I have some pictures from before.



Our group of friends. Ten of us ate dinner and got ready at Heather's house. From Left to right: Ryan F., Me, Josh, Sara, Monique, Steve, Jenn, Ryan V., Dustin and Heather.



Me and Ryan.